Other than Jesus, Caleb is by far my best friend.
Before there was an "us", there was an "I". I would consider myself to have been most definately a social butterfly. Even though that's such a cliche'. If I was given a time and a place, I was there! And there had to be multiple people involved in whatever I was doing. I just love people.
Now there is an "us". I wouldn't trade it for the anything. If I could explain myself to some degree, I would tell you that I'm a balloon floating off to dream land....with a light weight tied to my string. So, instead of totally floating off...I kind of drift in the middle. I've seen and experienced enough in my life to remind me of the "real" and hold me down. But my dreams keep me just high enough off of the ground. Caleb has become my light weight. He was exactly what I needed to keep myself from disappearing. Or maybe he became the helium that blew me up? God knows I analyze every situation. Analyzation is surely enough to suck helium right out of me! So who he is for me...may never be completly known. The fact is this: God knew that without Caleb, I would be stuck in the mud or on planet x.
Now, instead of jumping at every opportunity to "hang", I have become a homebody. And I actually enjoy it! I don't consider myself a hermit...just someone who enjoys spending every second of every day with family. Instead of enjoying everyone else's lives, I enjoy my life. No rushing to work, dropping the kids off at nursery and enjoying gossip with the employees. Instead, I get to sit in the living room cuddled up to my best friend laughing about nothing. God is teaching me to enjoy what he's given me in my own home. I used to complain about being "closed-off". "I never see anyone anymore!" "You made me a homebody!", that's what I would say. How embarrassing. That actually came out of my mouth. Don't get me wrong, I love to hang out with friends and enjoy fellowship with those we love. I've just realized that we know a lot of people...who enjoy doing a lot of get togethers. And it's okay to say no.
You know that saying, "You're eyes were bigger than your stomach"? Yeah, I'm so bad at that.
1. Because I enjoy eating!
2. There's always so much to choose from.
I see the social scene the same way! I enjoy visiting and hanging out. And with all the people in this little/big community...well there's a lot going on i.e to choose from.
We've always said we're family people. And we're not lying. I would stay in my pajamas all day with Caleb and Eden and just watch movies. Or sit on the front porch swing and have good quality conversation while Eden plays. When Caleb is out working...and Eden is asleep in her bed. I still enjoy good quality family time with God. He's my first best friend. Anything I've laughed about with Caleb, I'm surely taking it to God. Then, I have another laugh. My favorite place to spend with him is in front of my heater (soon to be fireplace) with a big couch pillow leaned against the brick. There are a lot of tears in that carpet (soon to be wood floor). A lot of laughter has taken place there. And best of all a lot of love. "Pushing in" to others is a good thing, I don't deny that. But I've come to a place where instead of pushing in to others, I'm pushing into family. "Others" will fail me. And one day they'll be gone. I'll spend the rest of my life with Caleb so that foundation must alway stay strong. But I'll spend eternity with my beloved! Thankfully our favorite place to meet is right in my living room.
Homebody, yes you can call me that. I'll proudly wear that tag. But I've got foundation thick as steel. Butterfly's are pretty and all, but their life span only lasts a few weeks. The longest living butterfly can only live up to 12 months. I'd say their foundation is made of sand.
For someone who used to be on the go....alot. I've learned a lesson. It may not be your lesson, but it was surely one taught to someone in this world.
-The proud homebody.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
A lesson learned
I learned a lesson today. One I think I've truly known was there in the back of my mind, I just ignored it.
A few times a day we go into the bathroom, close the door and Eden goes "nakey". I sit on the closed lid of the toilet and let her sit on hers. I give her a book because that's what mommy does while she's waiting on Eden. Eden likes to sit down for two seconds, hop up and get some toilet paper to "clean out the potty". She hasn't quite grasped that it's really for her. Now, a few weeks ago she actually did use her potty! We just don't know when? I should have learned this lesson that many weeks ago but....sadly, I didn't. So as we were learning how to go "potty", Eden does her usual. She sits, hops up, grabs a new book then tries to put her diaper back on!
I was so caught up in this great book I was reading that it took me a few minutes to realize that she was no longer sitting. I looked over the edge of my book to notice a messy bathroom. That's not how we entered. Two towels were strown across the floor accompanied by two books, shampoo and a the potty ended up on the other side of the bathroom. How did I miss all of this commotion? I started cleaning up when I noticed Eden had been in this frenzy because in the process of trying to return her potty to it's normal position she had in fact pee'd all on the floor. (sorry for the info but we're all adults) This could have been her 2nd time to use the potty all by herself! And I was too "caught up" to notice. In that moment I started thinking about all the times I've missed things because I've been too busy. This is why I wanted to stay at home with my children! Because I never want to miss anything....I want to raise and teach my kids. And here I am missing an opportunity of something simple yet huge! Potty training.
I know this isn't anything profound or deep and intellectual. While most things I blog aren't. I just got a nice slap across my face. Although it's something I already knew, I had just pushed the thought to the back of my mind once again. There are way too many distractions in this world. Although I wasn't caught up in some interesting movie or tv show. And I wasn't banging away on the keyboard.....I missed something very important because reading a book was more important to me than making sure my sweet Eden accomplished her potty. Instead I ended up with a huge mess to clean up and a puppy-eyed little girl who didn't understand what she did wrong. I was challenged to put aside the distractions and focus.
Even though it doesn't seem like much, I challenge you to do the same. I'm determined to spend less time reading, surfing the web, and flipping through channels....and spend more time paying attention. Even if it's to the little things like learning to potty. I've decided Eden's nap time will be my time with the Lord, reading, praying and then the extra little things. I don't forfeit God's time. And I certaintly can't forfeit Eden's time. Not anymore at least.
A few times a day we go into the bathroom, close the door and Eden goes "nakey". I sit on the closed lid of the toilet and let her sit on hers. I give her a book because that's what mommy does while she's waiting on Eden. Eden likes to sit down for two seconds, hop up and get some toilet paper to "clean out the potty". She hasn't quite grasped that it's really for her. Now, a few weeks ago she actually did use her potty! We just don't know when? I should have learned this lesson that many weeks ago but....sadly, I didn't. So as we were learning how to go "potty", Eden does her usual. She sits, hops up, grabs a new book then tries to put her diaper back on!
I was so caught up in this great book I was reading that it took me a few minutes to realize that she was no longer sitting. I looked over the edge of my book to notice a messy bathroom. That's not how we entered. Two towels were strown across the floor accompanied by two books, shampoo and a the potty ended up on the other side of the bathroom. How did I miss all of this commotion? I started cleaning up when I noticed Eden had been in this frenzy because in the process of trying to return her potty to it's normal position she had in fact pee'd all on the floor. (sorry for the info but we're all adults) This could have been her 2nd time to use the potty all by herself! And I was too "caught up" to notice. In that moment I started thinking about all the times I've missed things because I've been too busy. This is why I wanted to stay at home with my children! Because I never want to miss anything....I want to raise and teach my kids. And here I am missing an opportunity of something simple yet huge! Potty training.
I know this isn't anything profound or deep and intellectual. While most things I blog aren't. I just got a nice slap across my face. Although it's something I already knew, I had just pushed the thought to the back of my mind once again. There are way too many distractions in this world. Although I wasn't caught up in some interesting movie or tv show. And I wasn't banging away on the keyboard.....I missed something very important because reading a book was more important to me than making sure my sweet Eden accomplished her potty. Instead I ended up with a huge mess to clean up and a puppy-eyed little girl who didn't understand what she did wrong. I was challenged to put aside the distractions and focus.
Even though it doesn't seem like much, I challenge you to do the same. I'm determined to spend less time reading, surfing the web, and flipping through channels....and spend more time paying attention. Even if it's to the little things like learning to potty. I've decided Eden's nap time will be my time with the Lord, reading, praying and then the extra little things. I don't forfeit God's time. And I certaintly can't forfeit Eden's time. Not anymore at least.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
I am strong through Jesus Christ.
I'm sure most of you know by now, but for those of you who don't...we're pregnant!
Growing up, I've always heard that baby #2 isn't quite as exciting. Only because you've already gone through the "newness excitement" with the first. I considered them stretching the truth a bit. But I actually feel the same way! Although I am truly excited...it's just not the same. I am going to prove myself wrong though. I've come to the conclusion thus far that the excitement is dull...ONLY because it's mixed with that overwhelming feeling of, "Oh my, two babies!? How am I going to do this?"
If you're anything like me...which I consider myself strange in this aspect...I lay awake in the bed for at least an hour thinking before actually falling asleep. Caleb is long gone....twitching and sleep-talking. But me, I'm wide-awake. The first night of our new baby discovery, I lay there for at least 2 hours. I asked my best friend, "How do I do this? How can I love another baby as much as I love Eden? Can we afford two kids?". So, you can imagine the questions brewing. I'm sure most of you with multiple kids know my questions. Grace. That was the only answer to any of my questions. Most of the time...when I go to ask God a question...I already know the answer. I just want him to reassure me of myself. Not always....but usually. Even then, I scrunch my face and would really like him to say something like, "Money is going to grow on your tree. Go fishing and you'll find a coin. I'm sending Gabriel to nanny." You know....ridiculous things. (I still don't put it past him though (: ). So day 2 rolls around of my new knowings and I do the same thing that day AND night. Same answer. Blah! Those were my thoughts. Then a rebuke. Why can't I just be content with what the God of ALL universes, the maker of ALL things says? There I lay. Too scared to ask another word. I found the courage to tell Him, "Through you I am strong. By you I have the grace. I can do this!"
Everyday I find myself telling MYSELF, "You are strong. You can do this." I'm not sure if this is a common thing others go through but I know that God is taking me on yet another journey. 21 with two children. Both under the age of 3. I know though, that it is only by my Jesus that I have the strength to stay halfway sane. It is only by God that I have the grace to know that all of my needs will be met. All of OUR needs. Worry dominates the thoughts of unbelievers! He tells me that if I seek first HIS Kingdom and live righteously....he will give me everything I need. At least that's what Matthew 6:28:31 says. (My version is obviously seriously summarized)
So today again, I tell myself, "I am strong, only by Jesus. Only through Him will I survive this thing called Motherhood."
Growing up, I've always heard that baby #2 isn't quite as exciting. Only because you've already gone through the "newness excitement" with the first. I considered them stretching the truth a bit. But I actually feel the same way! Although I am truly excited...it's just not the same. I am going to prove myself wrong though. I've come to the conclusion thus far that the excitement is dull...ONLY because it's mixed with that overwhelming feeling of, "Oh my, two babies!? How am I going to do this?"
If you're anything like me...which I consider myself strange in this aspect...I lay awake in the bed for at least an hour thinking before actually falling asleep. Caleb is long gone....twitching and sleep-talking. But me, I'm wide-awake. The first night of our new baby discovery, I lay there for at least 2 hours. I asked my best friend, "How do I do this? How can I love another baby as much as I love Eden? Can we afford two kids?". So, you can imagine the questions brewing. I'm sure most of you with multiple kids know my questions. Grace. That was the only answer to any of my questions. Most of the time...when I go to ask God a question...I already know the answer. I just want him to reassure me of myself. Not always....but usually. Even then, I scrunch my face and would really like him to say something like, "Money is going to grow on your tree. Go fishing and you'll find a coin. I'm sending Gabriel to nanny." You know....ridiculous things. (I still don't put it past him though (: ). So day 2 rolls around of my new knowings and I do the same thing that day AND night. Same answer. Blah! Those were my thoughts. Then a rebuke. Why can't I just be content with what the God of ALL universes, the maker of ALL things says? There I lay. Too scared to ask another word. I found the courage to tell Him, "Through you I am strong. By you I have the grace. I can do this!"
Everyday I find myself telling MYSELF, "You are strong. You can do this." I'm not sure if this is a common thing others go through but I know that God is taking me on yet another journey. 21 with two children. Both under the age of 3. I know though, that it is only by my Jesus that I have the strength to stay halfway sane. It is only by God that I have the grace to know that all of my needs will be met. All of OUR needs. Worry dominates the thoughts of unbelievers! He tells me that if I seek first HIS Kingdom and live righteously....he will give me everything I need. At least that's what Matthew 6:28:31 says. (My version is obviously seriously summarized)
So today again, I tell myself, "I am strong, only by Jesus. Only through Him will I survive this thing called Motherhood."
Friday, October 29, 2010
Poems & Recipes
After releasing some tension in my previous post I felt I should lighten my next! I've never done two blogs in one day but I'm feeling this is necessary considering I was so icy earlier. I promise I love every single person regardless of the way they worship or live. I always have and always will. Although love seems far from me today....
I read this poem in my new read, themommydiaries. It's a wonderful book with stories from different mommies who find themselves through the chaos of motherhood.
When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
How to dress and tie your shoes Your one plus ones, and your two times two's
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way And I can't wait
As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
To say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait
How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust so unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the mots important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most essential things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait
-Sara Groves
I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did!
Next is a recipe for Mexican Cornbread-My new favorite!! This seemed right for the new season we're in(:
1 1/3 cups self-rising meal
1 cup shredded cheddar cheese (can add more)
3 eggs
1 cup chopped onion
1 can cream style corn
3/4 cup oil
1/2 cup milk
a little salt
2-5 jalapeno peppers
Bake at 400 degrees for 35-40 minutes. Makes a big iron skillet full.
I hope you enjoy this as much as I love it!!
I read this poem in my new read, themommydiaries. It's a wonderful book with stories from different mommies who find themselves through the chaos of motherhood.
When you reach the proper age
I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
How to dress and tie your shoes Your one plus ones, and your two times two's
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way And I can't wait
As you grow, I'll show you things
How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
To fold your hands and bow your head
To say your prayers before you go to bed
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait
How do you sleep so peacefully?
How do you trust so unflinchingly?
How do you love so faithfully?
How do you dance so joyfully?
And you'll teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the mots important things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't
No I can't
Come teach me
Of hearts and dreams
And all the most essential things
And all that I have lost along the way
And I can't wait
-Sara Groves
I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did!
Next is a recipe for Mexican Cornbread-My new favorite!! This seemed right for the new season we're in(:
1 1/3 cups self-rising meal
1 cup shredded cheddar cheese (can add more)
3 eggs
1 cup chopped onion
1 can cream style corn
3/4 cup oil
1/2 cup milk
a little salt
2-5 jalapeno peppers
Bake at 400 degrees for 35-40 minutes. Makes a big iron skillet full.
I hope you enjoy this as much as I love it!!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Great is thy Faithfulness!
Great is thy faithfulness, Great is thy faithfulness; Morning by morning new mercies I see!! All I have needed thy hand hath provided. Great is thy faithfulness; Lord unto thee.
Culpepper Lawn Care- Caleb & his brother's business during the summer....
Culpepper Deer Processing- Caleb's business during the winter....
Once the "grass cuttin" was over we were super excited for "deer season" to hurry up and get here. There was a two week break between the two so we spend a lot of time getting his processing room prepared; which included not only cleaning but some extra money had to go to new signs, seasonings, fat ( gross, I know ), etc...
Bow season comes before gun season. Unfortunately there are not a lot of bow hunters in Hamilon, Al. So along comes Friday, the first day of Bow season and we only get ONE deer. Hey, that's better than nothing! So we just thanked the Lord and hoped for more the next day. By Monday we had received 5 deer! Although we were so thankful for more deer...we knew it wasn't enough to pay our bills. Worry is not something we allow into our home anymore! We experienced some true refining in the "faith" department last year so I just spent extra quality time in prayer and reminded God (although he very well knows) that He has all of my trust. I'm so thankful I have a Faithful God! He will NEVER fail us!
Tuesday morning, although knowing the mail doesn't come until noon, I walked to my mailbox. Even now I'm not sure why...I opened the door and nothing was there. But as I had been walking towards the mailbox I heard that old hymn "Great is thy faithfulness!" (song at the top). I continued to sing the song for the next two hours straight. I even walked in Caleb's processing room and told him, "God is taking care of us. No worrying!" I got lost with the Lord and enjoyed time well spent with Holy Spirit. So, noon rolled around and I walked back down to the mailbox singing my new favorite song! I opened the mailbox and there laid a small envelope with nothing but a $1200 check. Great is HIS faithfulness! I'm not sure why I'm sharing this story today but I pray that it be a testimony of faith to someone.
Everything that I need He provides. Everything that WE need He provides. The past year and half that I have lived here we have never been without. Whether it be through someone else, or just a complete miracle that cannot be explained, God has taken care of us and He always will. He'll do the same for you!
On another note, I wanted to say to those of you who have tried to comment and were not able to...I think? you have to have an account also. But I thank you for going the extra mile and texting me or commenting on my facebook. You've been an encouragement whether you knew it or not to keep blogging! I thank God for each and everyone of you! and I pray His blessings over you! Be encouraged today. God is faithful.
Culpepper Lawn Care- Caleb & his brother's business during the summer....
Culpepper Deer Processing- Caleb's business during the winter....
Once the "grass cuttin" was over we were super excited for "deer season" to hurry up and get here. There was a two week break between the two so we spend a lot of time getting his processing room prepared; which included not only cleaning but some extra money had to go to new signs, seasonings, fat ( gross, I know ), etc...
Bow season comes before gun season. Unfortunately there are not a lot of bow hunters in Hamilon, Al. So along comes Friday, the first day of Bow season and we only get ONE deer. Hey, that's better than nothing! So we just thanked the Lord and hoped for more the next day. By Monday we had received 5 deer! Although we were so thankful for more deer...we knew it wasn't enough to pay our bills. Worry is not something we allow into our home anymore! We experienced some true refining in the "faith" department last year so I just spent extra quality time in prayer and reminded God (although he very well knows) that He has all of my trust. I'm so thankful I have a Faithful God! He will NEVER fail us!
Tuesday morning, although knowing the mail doesn't come until noon, I walked to my mailbox. Even now I'm not sure why...I opened the door and nothing was there. But as I had been walking towards the mailbox I heard that old hymn "Great is thy faithfulness!" (song at the top). I continued to sing the song for the next two hours straight. I even walked in Caleb's processing room and told him, "God is taking care of us. No worrying!" I got lost with the Lord and enjoyed time well spent with Holy Spirit. So, noon rolled around and I walked back down to the mailbox singing my new favorite song! I opened the mailbox and there laid a small envelope with nothing but a $1200 check. Great is HIS faithfulness! I'm not sure why I'm sharing this story today but I pray that it be a testimony of faith to someone.
Everything that I need He provides. Everything that WE need He provides. The past year and half that I have lived here we have never been without. Whether it be through someone else, or just a complete miracle that cannot be explained, God has taken care of us and He always will. He'll do the same for you!
On another note, I wanted to say to those of you who have tried to comment and were not able to...I think? you have to have an account also. But I thank you for going the extra mile and texting me or commenting on my facebook. You've been an encouragement whether you knew it or not to keep blogging! I thank God for each and everyone of you! and I pray His blessings over you! Be encouraged today. God is faithful.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Hast thou faith?
"Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth. And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin." -Romans 14:22-23 (KJV)
This is one of my most favorite verses from the bible! Actually...all of Romans 14, I thouroughly enjoy. In an earlier post, I mentioned God wanting me to be who I am. And to this day I still agree with my previous post. But if anyone misunderstood I'd like to clear it up. I don't believe that in our sin God is okay with you being..well, in sin. I believe that God sees us the way He intends us to be and daily purges us of those things. I am a firm believer in the fire of the Holy Spirit and I welcome it daily into my life.
Which is why my previous post stated this: "I must define myself by who he has set me apart to be. Whether other people accept me for who I am or not....he does. (meaning who he as called me to be) Of course he daily prunes me...so I'm always being molded into who he wants me to be. One day it may be attitude and the next he may be helping me on my mindset or view of the way I think situations should be. "
If you are in a homosexual relationship I do not agree. I do not believe God gives you mercy and grace and claims it to be okay. You are in sin. And the bible clearly states, multiple times that this is wrong. God does not contradict himself. So in Romans 14:23, He does not mean....if you have faith to believe that your homosexuality is not a sin it's okay....you're wrong! That means that God contradicted himself. He does not do that! God is very clear on what is sin and what is not sin and we can't excuse ourselves with this verse alone. And to use the "He loves me anyway" excuse is ignorance.
This was just the first example that came to my mind. This is NOT directed towards anyone I know. Actually, I don't even think I know anyone in homosexuality. Moving on...
And to further make my point on my previous post...I do not want to look or be who I want myself to be or look like! Only who HE wants me to be. I want to be the wife, mother and friend God wants me to be. And I look to scripture to tell me exactly what that is. I desire to live a holy life for a HOLY God. ( I recommend A.W Tozer's book "Knowledge of the Holy") I crave the fire of the Holy Spirit every single day and I enjoy the humbleness He brings.
I stand in confidence and FAITH to believe and know that what I do (although being human and having DAILY purging through the Holy Spirit) is pleasing to God, according to His Word. If that is in question to anyone I ask them to get to know ME on a personal note instead of through someone else...or even a blog.
"We are the most "REAL" in our comfortable place" -stolen from my husband (:
This is one of my most favorite verses from the bible! Actually...all of Romans 14, I thouroughly enjoy. In an earlier post, I mentioned God wanting me to be who I am. And to this day I still agree with my previous post. But if anyone misunderstood I'd like to clear it up. I don't believe that in our sin God is okay with you being..well, in sin. I believe that God sees us the way He intends us to be and daily purges us of those things. I am a firm believer in the fire of the Holy Spirit and I welcome it daily into my life.
Which is why my previous post stated this: "I must define myself by who he has set me apart to be. Whether other people accept me for who I am or not....he does. (meaning who he as called me to be) Of course he daily prunes me...so I'm always being molded into who he wants me to be. One day it may be attitude and the next he may be helping me on my mindset or view of the way I think situations should be. "
If you are in a homosexual relationship I do not agree. I do not believe God gives you mercy and grace and claims it to be okay. You are in sin. And the bible clearly states, multiple times that this is wrong. God does not contradict himself. So in Romans 14:23, He does not mean....if you have faith to believe that your homosexuality is not a sin it's okay....you're wrong! That means that God contradicted himself. He does not do that! God is very clear on what is sin and what is not sin and we can't excuse ourselves with this verse alone. And to use the "He loves me anyway" excuse is ignorance.
This was just the first example that came to my mind. This is NOT directed towards anyone I know. Actually, I don't even think I know anyone in homosexuality. Moving on...
And to further make my point on my previous post...I do not want to look or be who I want myself to be or look like! Only who HE wants me to be. I want to be the wife, mother and friend God wants me to be. And I look to scripture to tell me exactly what that is. I desire to live a holy life for a HOLY God. ( I recommend A.W Tozer's book "Knowledge of the Holy") I crave the fire of the Holy Spirit every single day and I enjoy the humbleness He brings.
I stand in confidence and FAITH to believe and know that what I do (although being human and having DAILY purging through the Holy Spirit) is pleasing to God, according to His Word. If that is in question to anyone I ask them to get to know ME on a personal note instead of through someone else...or even a blog.
"We are the most "REAL" in our comfortable place" -stolen from my husband (:
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
RUNNY NOSES, DIRTY DIAPERS & LOVE.
I'll start this blog off by telling you that I am most definitely....YOUNG. I was engaged at 17, married 1 month after my 18th birthday and pregnant 2 months later. Caleb and I have known each other our WHOLE lives...literally. When I was 9 months? (somewhere in that area) and He was almost 2 we were in a Q101 Baby Contest! ....He won. We grew up in the same church and played "smear the queer" (TERRIBLE name for a game) every sunday night together. He was my best friend.
There was a time in my life where I had to make a choice. I chose to lose my life and to be dead, only to find TRUE life in Jesus. I laid down..or lost every friend I had. Except for Caleb! He took my by the hand and together we stood up! We were determined to be set apart. Although we were alone in our walk, God was with us. Together we prayed for those we laid down and believed for their salvation and although it's been 5 years we're starting to see the fruit of our prayers!
So, Sept. 30 2007, Caleb proposed to me in the gazebo at Lake Tiak'O'Khata. I would love to tell you the story but it is extremely long! So, we planned to get married 8 months later on May 3, 2008. Our wedding day was by far the most amazing day I've ever had in my whole entire life! The presence of the Holy Spirit was so thick. Our walk in song for our guests was "Jesus Come" by Shane & Shane and Jesus did just that! He came... That is all we wanted for that day. In all honesty, there was not once that I felt nervous. Only excited! I was about to marry my Best Friend. The one person, other than God, who believed in me! He fought for me! So, at 6p.m, I walked out of the back door, across the porch, down the steps and through the yard to the man of my dreams. We soaked in the Holy Spirit and through joyful tears made promises that can never be broken. Yes, that day is on my top 5 list of "Best days ever".
Approximately 3 1/2 months later.....we find our we're pregnant! I can't tell you the flood of emotions I had. Happy, scared, excited, nervous....I'm only 18! Yes...18. Do I need to repeat? 18!
Thankfully the Lord had blessed us both with not only grace but favor. We had great jobs, great bosses and we had Him. We could only go forward from there knowing that our new baby was a gift from God. At 19/20 weeks we found out what our little gift was, a GIRL. For about 2 weeks before finding out I kept having dreams she was a girl...so I wasn't too shocked! We only had one name picked out, Adelee Eden. So, around rolls March 26th and here comes baby! I had an amazing birth with supernatural help from God! This day is also on my top 5 liste of "Best days ever".
So, here we are a year and a half later. As I like to say, I'm 20.7 now(: Although most people are still completely relying on their parents to take care of them...I am a parent who has a child that relies completely on me.
God, my all-knowing God...gave me this beautiful baby. With bright blue eyes and sweet blonde hair. FULL of personality and energy!! On the days that I don't want to do anything...she gets me going! She passes along her energy to me. To look in the backseat as I drive and see her praying with me leaves me speechless. When I see her lift her hands up and call on the name of "Jee-Jee"....again is beyond words. She was the inspiration of God. There are days that I think I am losing my mind. Mostly when new teeth are coming in....BUT I remember the gift I've been allowed to possess. The arrow in our quiver!
1 Timothy 4:12 says, "Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, in your faith, and in your purity."
Although I've been married nearly 3 years and have a child...I am trying to remember this scripture. God has brought us through so much in so little time. But it was God. He has a plan for our lives and I love that He is our head. He was with us 5 years ago, He was with us on our wedding day, and He is with us now. He is faithful.....I love his faithfulness.
There was a time in my life where I had to make a choice. I chose to lose my life and to be dead, only to find TRUE life in Jesus. I laid down..or lost every friend I had. Except for Caleb! He took my by the hand and together we stood up! We were determined to be set apart. Although we were alone in our walk, God was with us. Together we prayed for those we laid down and believed for their salvation and although it's been 5 years we're starting to see the fruit of our prayers!
So, Sept. 30 2007, Caleb proposed to me in the gazebo at Lake Tiak'O'Khata. I would love to tell you the story but it is extremely long! So, we planned to get married 8 months later on May 3, 2008. Our wedding day was by far the most amazing day I've ever had in my whole entire life! The presence of the Holy Spirit was so thick. Our walk in song for our guests was "Jesus Come" by Shane & Shane and Jesus did just that! He came... That is all we wanted for that day. In all honesty, there was not once that I felt nervous. Only excited! I was about to marry my Best Friend. The one person, other than God, who believed in me! He fought for me! So, at 6p.m, I walked out of the back door, across the porch, down the steps and through the yard to the man of my dreams. We soaked in the Holy Spirit and through joyful tears made promises that can never be broken. Yes, that day is on my top 5 list of "Best days ever".
Approximately 3 1/2 months later.....we find our we're pregnant! I can't tell you the flood of emotions I had. Happy, scared, excited, nervous....I'm only 18! Yes...18. Do I need to repeat? 18!
Thankfully the Lord had blessed us both with not only grace but favor. We had great jobs, great bosses and we had Him. We could only go forward from there knowing that our new baby was a gift from God. At 19/20 weeks we found out what our little gift was, a GIRL. For about 2 weeks before finding out I kept having dreams she was a girl...so I wasn't too shocked! We only had one name picked out, Adelee Eden. So, around rolls March 26th and here comes baby! I had an amazing birth with supernatural help from God! This day is also on my top 5 liste of "Best days ever".
So, here we are a year and a half later. As I like to say, I'm 20.7 now(: Although most people are still completely relying on their parents to take care of them...I am a parent who has a child that relies completely on me.
God, my all-knowing God...gave me this beautiful baby. With bright blue eyes and sweet blonde hair. FULL of personality and energy!! On the days that I don't want to do anything...she gets me going! She passes along her energy to me. To look in the backseat as I drive and see her praying with me leaves me speechless. When I see her lift her hands up and call on the name of "Jee-Jee"....again is beyond words. She was the inspiration of God. There are days that I think I am losing my mind. Mostly when new teeth are coming in....BUT I remember the gift I've been allowed to possess. The arrow in our quiver!
1 Timothy 4:12 says, "Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you say, in the way you live, in your love, in your faith, and in your purity."
Although I've been married nearly 3 years and have a child...I am trying to remember this scripture. God has brought us through so much in so little time. But it was God. He has a plan for our lives and I love that He is our head. He was with us 5 years ago, He was with us on our wedding day, and He is with us now. He is faithful.....I love his faithfulness.
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