Other than Jesus, Caleb is by far my best friend.
Before there was an "us", there was an "I". I would consider myself to have been most definately a social butterfly. Even though that's such a cliche'. If I was given a time and a place, I was there! And there had to be multiple people involved in whatever I was doing. I just love people.
Now there is an "us". I wouldn't trade it for the anything. If I could explain myself to some degree, I would tell you that I'm a balloon floating off to dream land....with a light weight tied to my string. So, instead of totally floating off...I kind of drift in the middle. I've seen and experienced enough in my life to remind me of the "real" and hold me down. But my dreams keep me just high enough off of the ground. Caleb has become my light weight. He was exactly what I needed to keep myself from disappearing. Or maybe he became the helium that blew me up? God knows I analyze every situation. Analyzation is surely enough to suck helium right out of me! So who he is for me...may never be completly known. The fact is this: God knew that without Caleb, I would be stuck in the mud or on planet x.
Now, instead of jumping at every opportunity to "hang", I have become a homebody. And I actually enjoy it! I don't consider myself a hermit...just someone who enjoys spending every second of every day with family. Instead of enjoying everyone else's lives, I enjoy my life. No rushing to work, dropping the kids off at nursery and enjoying gossip with the employees. Instead, I get to sit in the living room cuddled up to my best friend laughing about nothing. God is teaching me to enjoy what he's given me in my own home. I used to complain about being "closed-off". "I never see anyone anymore!" "You made me a homebody!", that's what I would say. How embarrassing. That actually came out of my mouth. Don't get me wrong, I love to hang out with friends and enjoy fellowship with those we love. I've just realized that we know a lot of people...who enjoy doing a lot of get togethers. And it's okay to say no.
You know that saying, "You're eyes were bigger than your stomach"? Yeah, I'm so bad at that.
1. Because I enjoy eating!
2. There's always so much to choose from.
I see the social scene the same way! I enjoy visiting and hanging out. And with all the people in this little/big community...well there's a lot going on i.e to choose from.
We've always said we're family people. And we're not lying. I would stay in my pajamas all day with Caleb and Eden and just watch movies. Or sit on the front porch swing and have good quality conversation while Eden plays. When Caleb is out working...and Eden is asleep in her bed. I still enjoy good quality family time with God. He's my first best friend. Anything I've laughed about with Caleb, I'm surely taking it to God. Then, I have another laugh. My favorite place to spend with him is in front of my heater (soon to be fireplace) with a big couch pillow leaned against the brick. There are a lot of tears in that carpet (soon to be wood floor). A lot of laughter has taken place there. And best of all a lot of love. "Pushing in" to others is a good thing, I don't deny that. But I've come to a place where instead of pushing in to others, I'm pushing into family. "Others" will fail me. And one day they'll be gone. I'll spend the rest of my life with Caleb so that foundation must alway stay strong. But I'll spend eternity with my beloved! Thankfully our favorite place to meet is right in my living room.
Homebody, yes you can call me that. I'll proudly wear that tag. But I've got foundation thick as steel. Butterfly's are pretty and all, but their life span only lasts a few weeks. The longest living butterfly can only live up to 12 months. I'd say their foundation is made of sand.
For someone who used to be on the go....alot. I've learned a lesson. It may not be your lesson, but it was surely one taught to someone in this world.
-The proud homebody.
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