As most of you know we are on a journey back to our hometown, Meridian. If you haven't heard, or are curious of the story..please read the previous post!
After having confirmation of our move, we immediately began searching for a place to live. This search has not been easy. Being self-employed has it's downfalls and the fact that our economy is falling apart does not help either. It didn't take long for me to become somewhat discouraged. It didn't take long for my hopes to begin to pick up either! I began to pray Philipians 4:6-7 over and over again. Anytime I felt the tears coming on, I prayed. That hiss would whisper in my ear all the many obstacles I faced. "You won't have a place to live, everyone needs a house" "You're pregnant, where will your baby sleep?"....on and on. Then I prayed. I made my requests known to God, not just that we would have a place to stay, but that I would be encompassed in His peace. I just wanted peace.
My stresses only lasted a day. God immediately answered my prayers. Through thanksgiving, I asked and received. And thanksgiving I return! I have peace. No, we still don't have a house to stay in until we can buy what we want. BUT, I have peace!!
God is faithful! He remains the same. He gave us a word and on a word we stand. Life is full of obstacles and He's given us the strength to surpass them all! I am excited to continue this journey and come into all that God has for my family. We will never understand why He does what He does, but I am thankful that He has chosen us to do His will where He needs us.
Thank you to those who have taken us up in prayer. There's nothing like friends who love...
He is Faithful!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
This journey we are on....
You know those people who say, "I can't wait to get out of this town!"....well, I have never been one of those people. I was born in Meridian, Ms. I grew up in Meridian, and I love Meridian!
Caleb was on Chosen from the beginning of 2006 until the end of 2007. So, two years...
He took a "break" ( I guess you could say ) from the team to prepare for marriage and take care of financial matters. We got married May 3 of 2008. That October I was 4 months pregnant and the thought of Hamilton began to imbed itself in our minds. The Lord started a stirring in Caleb's heart to return. For me it was only a thought. I said, "Maybe one day".
At seven months pregnant, Caleb began to feel this stirring even more strongly and really began to seek the Lord about it in prayer. The thought of moving away from my family with a newborn did not settle well with me. I needed a definite word from God.
Caleb went to work at 8 every morning and I was usually still asleep. This particular morning in my half asleep/awake stage I clearly heard Caleb say, "Pack your bags...you're moving to Hamilton". When I completely woke up, I jumped up and ran in every room in our small home trying to find Caleb. He was no where to be found. I called him at work and asked him did he tell me that and he said no. The strange thing was He finally clearly heard the Lord tell him the SAME thing!! That morning!! Immediately I had peace in my heart. I was ready to move to Hamilton on the word of God.
When Eden was only 3 months old...we moved to Hamilton. It was a hard transition. But we were willing vessels saying YES to the will of God. We knew when we moved that this would only be for a season of our lives. This would not be permanent for us. We expected it would be 5-10 years....at the least! Many times we've tried to make our lives here permanent. We have planted business. Attempted to buy a home. Make deep connections with others, etc. Nothing seemed to work though. Our business just got us by. Our loan wouldn't go through. And the deep connections were far and few between, although there are those we consider friends who stick closer than a brother! I believe God didn't allow the permanent fixes to stick because He knew it wouldn't be long until He called us home.
Six to seven months ago the Lord began to stir in my heart dreams of Meridian. I literally smelled Meridian. I thought about it constantly and missed it a lot. So...I started rebuking a "familiar spirit"! Haha! I told it Hamilton is the place God called us to and I started breaking any ties with Meridian that I might have forgotten about. But this stirring just didn't go away. So, I began praying into it HARD! Dreams I used to have for Meridian (that I had pushed back) started to come forth. I started desiring to do these things. God has hope for Meridian! One day, I said to Caleb, "I miss Meridian"....and he responded with the same statement. I asked him had he been feeling the same things I was and He said yes. Together we began to pray into this.
God has a perfect will for our lives. He knows the right and wrong move and we know that anything we do without His word is in vain. We know that we could move home and it not be the word of God for us and fail. When I say we prayed...we PRAYED!
After Christmas I felt the stirring even stronger! I knew the Lord was saying it was time. We've only lived in Hamilton 1 year and 7 months. Why would He call us to a place for this period of time? "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens" -Ecc 3:1
That is the only answer I got.
Again we say yes Lord to all you have for us. We are willing vessels! We so want to fulfil His call for our lives!!
Our first move, before telling ANYONE, was to go to Mrs. Karen...our spiritual authority. I advise everyone to have spiritual authority in your life! The right order of this was to get with her and tell her everything I felt the Lord was sharing with me and Caleb. She confirmed everything we had been hearing and blessed us on the word of the Lord. What a relief! Having that confirmation is glorious. There were times that I thought I was crazy and just simply missing home.
I am thankful with all of my heart that God brought us here. Although we never had a platform to speak on, or a mic in our hands...we learned so many valuable things that are ETERNAL! We grew as husband and wife, as parents and as a son and daughter of God. We have spent more of our married life in Hamilton than any other place. Our first daughter has spent most of her life (so far) in Hamilton. We have great friends here in Hamilton. This will be a hard transition but beautiful all in the same. I believe God brought us to Hamilton to attain something we can take back to Meridian, that Meridian does not have! Awakening!
I look forward to more tent revivals in the Ben Arthur Davis park. I look forward to lives being totally and radically changed for the glory of the Lord. I look forward to a new journey in our hearts. Our hearts will always be a part of The Ramp and Hamilton. We will stay connected and continue being a part. God has huge plans and I am excited and thankful that He is using us. I am thankful that He is faithful in everything.
To all our Ramp community family: We love you all very much! We will always keep each and every one of you in our prayers. We're not falling off the face of the earth....I promise! Every conference weekend and Sunday night service we can make, we WILL be back! We thank each and everyone of you who have been a part of our lives. Thank you for loving us back.
K, I have to stop now before the tears start flowing.
Caleb was on Chosen from the beginning of 2006 until the end of 2007. So, two years...
He took a "break" ( I guess you could say ) from the team to prepare for marriage and take care of financial matters. We got married May 3 of 2008. That October I was 4 months pregnant and the thought of Hamilton began to imbed itself in our minds. The Lord started a stirring in Caleb's heart to return. For me it was only a thought. I said, "Maybe one day".
At seven months pregnant, Caleb began to feel this stirring even more strongly and really began to seek the Lord about it in prayer. The thought of moving away from my family with a newborn did not settle well with me. I needed a definite word from God.
Caleb went to work at 8 every morning and I was usually still asleep. This particular morning in my half asleep/awake stage I clearly heard Caleb say, "Pack your bags...you're moving to Hamilton". When I completely woke up, I jumped up and ran in every room in our small home trying to find Caleb. He was no where to be found. I called him at work and asked him did he tell me that and he said no. The strange thing was He finally clearly heard the Lord tell him the SAME thing!! That morning!! Immediately I had peace in my heart. I was ready to move to Hamilton on the word of God.
When Eden was only 3 months old...we moved to Hamilton. It was a hard transition. But we were willing vessels saying YES to the will of God. We knew when we moved that this would only be for a season of our lives. This would not be permanent for us. We expected it would be 5-10 years....at the least! Many times we've tried to make our lives here permanent. We have planted business. Attempted to buy a home. Make deep connections with others, etc. Nothing seemed to work though. Our business just got us by. Our loan wouldn't go through. And the deep connections were far and few between, although there are those we consider friends who stick closer than a brother! I believe God didn't allow the permanent fixes to stick because He knew it wouldn't be long until He called us home.
Six to seven months ago the Lord began to stir in my heart dreams of Meridian. I literally smelled Meridian. I thought about it constantly and missed it a lot. So...I started rebuking a "familiar spirit"! Haha! I told it Hamilton is the place God called us to and I started breaking any ties with Meridian that I might have forgotten about. But this stirring just didn't go away. So, I began praying into it HARD! Dreams I used to have for Meridian (that I had pushed back) started to come forth. I started desiring to do these things. God has hope for Meridian! One day, I said to Caleb, "I miss Meridian"....and he responded with the same statement. I asked him had he been feeling the same things I was and He said yes. Together we began to pray into this.
God has a perfect will for our lives. He knows the right and wrong move and we know that anything we do without His word is in vain. We know that we could move home and it not be the word of God for us and fail. When I say we prayed...we PRAYED!
After Christmas I felt the stirring even stronger! I knew the Lord was saying it was time. We've only lived in Hamilton 1 year and 7 months. Why would He call us to a place for this period of time? "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens" -Ecc 3:1
That is the only answer I got.
Again we say yes Lord to all you have for us. We are willing vessels! We so want to fulfil His call for our lives!!
Our first move, before telling ANYONE, was to go to Mrs. Karen...our spiritual authority. I advise everyone to have spiritual authority in your life! The right order of this was to get with her and tell her everything I felt the Lord was sharing with me and Caleb. She confirmed everything we had been hearing and blessed us on the word of the Lord. What a relief! Having that confirmation is glorious. There were times that I thought I was crazy and just simply missing home.
I am thankful with all of my heart that God brought us here. Although we never had a platform to speak on, or a mic in our hands...we learned so many valuable things that are ETERNAL! We grew as husband and wife, as parents and as a son and daughter of God. We have spent more of our married life in Hamilton than any other place. Our first daughter has spent most of her life (so far) in Hamilton. We have great friends here in Hamilton. This will be a hard transition but beautiful all in the same. I believe God brought us to Hamilton to attain something we can take back to Meridian, that Meridian does not have! Awakening!
I look forward to more tent revivals in the Ben Arthur Davis park. I look forward to lives being totally and radically changed for the glory of the Lord. I look forward to a new journey in our hearts. Our hearts will always be a part of The Ramp and Hamilton. We will stay connected and continue being a part. God has huge plans and I am excited and thankful that He is using us. I am thankful that He is faithful in everything.
To all our Ramp community family: We love you all very much! We will always keep each and every one of you in our prayers. We're not falling off the face of the earth....I promise! Every conference weekend and Sunday night service we can make, we WILL be back! We thank each and everyone of you who have been a part of our lives. Thank you for loving us back.
K, I have to stop now before the tears start flowing.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Jesus is a sword. Dividing between flesh and spirit.
As humans we tend to imagine God as who we think He is. We don't truly have knowledge of who He is. Imagining God as one thing compared to who He really is, is such a dangerous place. In our fault we can say, "Oh, he is God, full of grace and mercy." But remember that He is also Just! As a parent, I understand this next statement better. Yes, He is a father...but a father that TRULY loves also disciplines. When I was little I remember my dad spanking me, then turning me around and asking me, "Do you know why I did that? Because I love you!"
In everything we analyze and decide who we think God is. There are so many areas I can go into concerning this but in prayer this morning, God laid something specific on my heart.
"Do you think I have come to bring peace to the earth? No, I have come to divide people against each other! From now on, families will be split apart, three in favor of me, and two against- or two in favor and three against. Father will be divided against son and son against father; mother against daughter and daughter against mother; and mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law. -Luke 12:51-53
That is semi-hard to imagine, huh? That Jesus really didn't come to bring peace and unity but division between flesh and spirit. Relationships developed in the flesh and not spirit eventually end in death. Being reared in a christian home, and rearing my children in a christian home is so desireable to me. I love them with all of my heart and could not imagine being seperated from them. Being 155.11 miles away from my own family is hard enough. It is so important to yoke ourselves with those who are like-minded for Christ. This passage not only pushes me to make sure I teach my children the ways of the Lord but also that I pray for my family who does not know Him for who He truly is. I want these people to remain in my life. I want to look beside me and see them running this race too! And if and whenever they stumble, I want to take them by the hand and be an encouragement.
Jesus also states this, "If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple." -Luke 14: 26-27
Ok, you don't have to hate on everybody! This simply means that He should be so loved by you that you will follow him no matter the circumstances! I thought about this verse while watching Ratatoullie with Eden and Caleb last night (Hilarious movie if you've never seen it). Remy, the main mouse, is very different from his family. He loves to cook and he's very good at it! He gets seperated from his family for a while and ends up at his favorite restaraunt, Gusteau's. While there he sits in the chef hat of a terrible cook and helps him cook good meals. Eventually he is reunited with his family. He has been taught that all great chefs do not steal food. He lets his family get the best of him and begins to sneak food to them. Eventually, he lets his whole rodent family into the restaraunt one night to take what they want....and he gets caught!
Although he had commited himself to Linguini(the chef), after some discouragement he encountered, he let his family get the best of him. His loyalty was indeed not to the chef after all.
I see our relationship with Christ this way. When we commit to dying daily and taking up our cross, we put Christ above all. Our loyalty is to Him and him alone. You forsake ALL to take up your cross and follow Him wherever He may lead.
A.W Tozer says this, "Flesh must always be sacrificed to the spirit and the heavenly placed above the earthly, and that at any cost. When we take up the cross, we become expendable, along with all natural friendships and all previous loyalties and Christ becomes all in all." Nicely put.
Although I personally believe that God wants us to enjoy those He has placed in our lives, He also wants those relationships to be equally yoked. I can tell you from experience it is hard to maintain a relationship with someone who is not spiritually in the same place as you. Our lives should revolve around Christ and our spiritual relationship with Him. It is eternally important. Religion (or our relationship with Christ) SHOULD interfere in our private lives. It should be a constant in our lives. He created you and He has the right to be in every crevice and crack. Denying Him that place is a non-devoted heart.
And don't feel that division is the end of the world either! While we know that God knows only the perfect plan in the end, we should trust that. Sometimes division is necessary for God to take us to the place intended for us from the beginning of time. He will not forsake us(: He is a good God in the hard places and the good places. Take the time to draw near to Him in the hard places and soar on the easy roads. He takes all things intended for evil and indeed makes them good!
This is a good test and will show the true intentions of the heart. Definitely not a bad thing(:
In everything we analyze and decide who we think God is. There are so many areas I can go into concerning this but in prayer this morning, God laid something specific on my heart.
"Do you think I have come to bring peace to the earth? No, I have come to divide people against each other! From now on, families will be split apart, three in favor of me, and two against- or two in favor and three against. Father will be divided against son and son against father; mother against daughter and daughter against mother; and mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law. -Luke 12:51-53
That is semi-hard to imagine, huh? That Jesus really didn't come to bring peace and unity but division between flesh and spirit. Relationships developed in the flesh and not spirit eventually end in death. Being reared in a christian home, and rearing my children in a christian home is so desireable to me. I love them with all of my heart and could not imagine being seperated from them. Being 155.11 miles away from my own family is hard enough. It is so important to yoke ourselves with those who are like-minded for Christ. This passage not only pushes me to make sure I teach my children the ways of the Lord but also that I pray for my family who does not know Him for who He truly is. I want these people to remain in my life. I want to look beside me and see them running this race too! And if and whenever they stumble, I want to take them by the hand and be an encouragement.
Jesus also states this, "If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple." -Luke 14: 26-27
Ok, you don't have to hate on everybody! This simply means that He should be so loved by you that you will follow him no matter the circumstances! I thought about this verse while watching Ratatoullie with Eden and Caleb last night (Hilarious movie if you've never seen it). Remy, the main mouse, is very different from his family. He loves to cook and he's very good at it! He gets seperated from his family for a while and ends up at his favorite restaraunt, Gusteau's. While there he sits in the chef hat of a terrible cook and helps him cook good meals. Eventually he is reunited with his family. He has been taught that all great chefs do not steal food. He lets his family get the best of him and begins to sneak food to them. Eventually, he lets his whole rodent family into the restaraunt one night to take what they want....and he gets caught!
Although he had commited himself to Linguini(the chef), after some discouragement he encountered, he let his family get the best of him. His loyalty was indeed not to the chef after all.
I see our relationship with Christ this way. When we commit to dying daily and taking up our cross, we put Christ above all. Our loyalty is to Him and him alone. You forsake ALL to take up your cross and follow Him wherever He may lead.
A.W Tozer says this, "Flesh must always be sacrificed to the spirit and the heavenly placed above the earthly, and that at any cost. When we take up the cross, we become expendable, along with all natural friendships and all previous loyalties and Christ becomes all in all." Nicely put.
Although I personally believe that God wants us to enjoy those He has placed in our lives, He also wants those relationships to be equally yoked. I can tell you from experience it is hard to maintain a relationship with someone who is not spiritually in the same place as you. Our lives should revolve around Christ and our spiritual relationship with Him. It is eternally important. Religion (or our relationship with Christ) SHOULD interfere in our private lives. It should be a constant in our lives. He created you and He has the right to be in every crevice and crack. Denying Him that place is a non-devoted heart.
And don't feel that division is the end of the world either! While we know that God knows only the perfect plan in the end, we should trust that. Sometimes division is necessary for God to take us to the place intended for us from the beginning of time. He will not forsake us(: He is a good God in the hard places and the good places. Take the time to draw near to Him in the hard places and soar on the easy roads. He takes all things intended for evil and indeed makes them good!
This is a good test and will show the true intentions of the heart. Definitely not a bad thing(:
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Would this be considered a biography?
I came across a question the other day which I attempted to answer in my head but could not. So I thought the best place to do so would be here. So for those of you who are only aquaintances, enjoy!
Who are you? Enlighten me about yourself...
Here goes...
Keep in mind that I am only 21 and this will more than likely change with time. So I will include those things that have stayed with me along with the "now".
1. I was the eldest child. I definitely think that plays a big part in personality. I didn't have a sibling until I was 5 1/2. My mom always said that even before my sister came along that I wasn't good at playing by myself. I always wanted a friend to play with. That has stuck with me through life. I enjoy people. I could spend all day hanging out with someone even if that meant not talking and just watching movies. I love the presence of people. One thing that has changed in the past 3 years is that I enjoy my alone time also. That is when I enjoy the presence of God.
Onto other things..
2. I will carry on a conversation with ANYONE. Speaking of, here is an example. Caleb and I stopped in Ackerman to have someone look at something on my car before we sold it. Instead of letting Caleb handle it, I stood with the guy and talked about everything possible. I like meeting new people and making friends. It's not too hard for me for the most part. And...I def get along with those who are the same. Aricka Drewery, can carry on a conversation with a wall and I love that about her! Hence, she's a friend(:
3. I spend a lot of time being goofy. Most of my life's hours consist of being insanely stupid. Silly dancing, lip-syncing (bc I have no talent in that area) with a brush and jumping on my furniture. Yes, I remember...I'm still only 21. But I hope I never outgrow the silliness. The best thing about this part of "me" is that I'm married to someone very similar! Caleb has a cb in one of his trucks and we like to drive down the road singing like chinese people through it. He "dings" while I sing. It's very odd, because we can do this for 30 minutes without stopping. We break into crazy dance in our living room ALOT. I don't even have to tell him what I'm thinking...he like...reads my mind. My favorite part is our wrestling matches we have at midnight when we're both SO tired we can barely hold our eyes open. He usually wins. One time he pushed me off our bed (it's at least 4 feet high!) caught me by the feet so I banged my face on the side of our bed. It is a sleigh bed so all I hit was wood. Then I just crumpled to the floor in pain. We laughed so hard even though I was almost positive I broke my nose. We play soccer in our living room nearly every night. I win. I maintain lots of black and blue bruises on my legs. I swear he doesn't beat me.
4. I appreciate life more than anyone I currently know. I've been through it all and have never had it all. I witnessed my mom struggle and have struggled myself in more things than one. I feel that gives me a sense of appreciation. I don't regret the life I've had but am thankful it is what I was given. Lacking creates appreciation. God knew what He was doing. He developed REAL faith within me.
5. Talents- I have none. I don't sing. I danced in high school, but I wouldn't consider it a talent. I took piano for 9 years....and don't remember ONE thing. I can't even read music. No boasting intended but I am quite athletic. I played softball for 15 years. I played on Varsity for my school and also with a tournament team that traveled. I took gymnastics for 12 years and dance/cheer for 4. I made the soccer team but my mom made me quit before our first practice. I played basketball for my school and if I had any interest in tennis I would have pursued that but didn't. Oh, and I did track for a year. Sadly, I can't carry those "talents" if that's what you call it...into my adult life. I wish that they could advance the kingdom in some way but unless the world goes into mass chaos and I had to run a long way...I don't think it would matter. And I can't hit a softball and hope that brings Jesus. No giftings that I know of? yah-dah yah...
6. I think I have a slight sense of humor. My mom and I are pretty funny to hang out with. We crack a lot of jokes and are always laughing about something. I decided after analyzing myself (haha) that I can be a somewhat smart eleck(sp) with my humor. But never hurtful! I'm the type of person that if you have a booger in your nose...I'm going to whisper it in your ear. Don't worry, I'll tell you. But I would not embarass anyone! Not on purpose at least!
7. I'm probably one of the most honest people you meet. Not brutally honest, just honest. (Unless you are a cop and I ran a red light...then I might try and bend the truth some) Terrible, I know!! Not that I run red lights or anything. Yellow means slow down, not speed up. I have actually never had a ticket before. If you ever want to know anything just ask me and I'll tell you first hand. If I ever hear anything about anyone that seems odd...I'm probably just gonna ask them. No need in going through 10 people to find out the truth. I think that can become gossip anyways. I have to say though, it aggravates me when people don't do the same. If you hear something that makes you "think differently" of another person...just find out the truth for yourself! You could have possibly had a good friend indeed! I have learned that taking others for their word is not always the best. People lie! Sad truth, but it is true.
8. This may not even be about me...idk. Yes it is...I love to eat! My dad and I used to have eating contests when I was little. We would see who could eat the most sloppy joe's. I always won! Thankfully, I had this ridiculous metabolism. I love carbs. I love pastas with all of my heart. Mmmm-mmm! Give me a good baked potato with just the right amount of butter and cheese and I'll be your best friend for life. Well, since I love to eat, I enjoy cooking. I hate cleaning up afterwards...but putting that food in my mouth makes it all worth it! I even ate lunch at school. Most people don't do that. I would ask my friends who didn't eat all theirs if I could have the rest. That's how much I enjoyed it.
9. I love movies. Action, romance, comedy, suspense (not scary), you name it...I'll love it. If my job could be movie critic I would be a millionaire. Every day all day I would watch movies. Obviously, I have a life so I can't do that. Also, it would interfere with my time with God. I definitely can't have that. Maybe tv/movies is of the devil. Haha!!
10. I love my family more than anything in this world. Not only my husband and children, but ALL of them. My mom is my best friend. I call her everyday, literally 3 times or more. I love her so much because she doesn't always take my side. I know that seems a little crazy but I love how she weighs out a situation and gives me her conclusion. She's not some "spiritual" person. She's very simple and I love that. She's my "down to earth" bestie. My dad, I love simply because he is my dad. He's not always done things right by no means but at the end of the day he is my dad. He is a definte redneck living the redneck life. I think that's all I have to say about that! You will find him with a beer in his hand, a dip in his mouth and a few cuss words slingin around. He tried to teach me to cuss at people. Yes. That is him. I believe for some real salvation there. I could go on about every single person in my family and why I love them but that would be boring to you. Regardless, I love with all of my heart. I don't half-way do it. I've been made fun of a lot for having "too much" compassion. Call it what you may, but I sure do love the people in my life. I love them in their gross sin because He loved me in mine. And I believe through that, they'll see Him.
Who am I? Non-spiritually speaking...I'm Sydney Rachel Cagle Culpepper. Wife to Caleb Culpepper, by far the best earthly friend I'll ever have. Mother to a wonderful, full of life daughter and soon to be angel. A true friend to those I love. I enjoy a lot of laughs and some good food and most importantly friends who are real. I'm my own person. I love who I am and everything about me that makes me, me.
Who are you? Enlighten me about yourself...
Here goes...
Keep in mind that I am only 21 and this will more than likely change with time. So I will include those things that have stayed with me along with the "now".
1. I was the eldest child. I definitely think that plays a big part in personality. I didn't have a sibling until I was 5 1/2. My mom always said that even before my sister came along that I wasn't good at playing by myself. I always wanted a friend to play with. That has stuck with me through life. I enjoy people. I could spend all day hanging out with someone even if that meant not talking and just watching movies. I love the presence of people. One thing that has changed in the past 3 years is that I enjoy my alone time also. That is when I enjoy the presence of God.
Onto other things..
2. I will carry on a conversation with ANYONE. Speaking of, here is an example. Caleb and I stopped in Ackerman to have someone look at something on my car before we sold it. Instead of letting Caleb handle it, I stood with the guy and talked about everything possible. I like meeting new people and making friends. It's not too hard for me for the most part. And...I def get along with those who are the same. Aricka Drewery, can carry on a conversation with a wall and I love that about her! Hence, she's a friend(:
3. I spend a lot of time being goofy. Most of my life's hours consist of being insanely stupid. Silly dancing, lip-syncing (bc I have no talent in that area) with a brush and jumping on my furniture. Yes, I remember...I'm still only 21. But I hope I never outgrow the silliness. The best thing about this part of "me" is that I'm married to someone very similar! Caleb has a cb in one of his trucks and we like to drive down the road singing like chinese people through it. He "dings" while I sing. It's very odd, because we can do this for 30 minutes without stopping. We break into crazy dance in our living room ALOT. I don't even have to tell him what I'm thinking...he like...reads my mind. My favorite part is our wrestling matches we have at midnight when we're both SO tired we can barely hold our eyes open. He usually wins. One time he pushed me off our bed (it's at least 4 feet high!) caught me by the feet so I banged my face on the side of our bed. It is a sleigh bed so all I hit was wood. Then I just crumpled to the floor in pain. We laughed so hard even though I was almost positive I broke my nose. We play soccer in our living room nearly every night. I win. I maintain lots of black and blue bruises on my legs. I swear he doesn't beat me.
4. I appreciate life more than anyone I currently know. I've been through it all and have never had it all. I witnessed my mom struggle and have struggled myself in more things than one. I feel that gives me a sense of appreciation. I don't regret the life I've had but am thankful it is what I was given. Lacking creates appreciation. God knew what He was doing. He developed REAL faith within me.
5. Talents- I have none. I don't sing. I danced in high school, but I wouldn't consider it a talent. I took piano for 9 years....and don't remember ONE thing. I can't even read music. No boasting intended but I am quite athletic. I played softball for 15 years. I played on Varsity for my school and also with a tournament team that traveled. I took gymnastics for 12 years and dance/cheer for 4. I made the soccer team but my mom made me quit before our first practice. I played basketball for my school and if I had any interest in tennis I would have pursued that but didn't. Oh, and I did track for a year. Sadly, I can't carry those "talents" if that's what you call it...into my adult life. I wish that they could advance the kingdom in some way but unless the world goes into mass chaos and I had to run a long way...I don't think it would matter. And I can't hit a softball and hope that brings Jesus. No giftings that I know of? yah-dah yah...
6. I think I have a slight sense of humor. My mom and I are pretty funny to hang out with. We crack a lot of jokes and are always laughing about something. I decided after analyzing myself (haha) that I can be a somewhat smart eleck(sp) with my humor. But never hurtful! I'm the type of person that if you have a booger in your nose...I'm going to whisper it in your ear. Don't worry, I'll tell you. But I would not embarass anyone! Not on purpose at least!
7. I'm probably one of the most honest people you meet. Not brutally honest, just honest. (Unless you are a cop and I ran a red light...then I might try and bend the truth some) Terrible, I know!! Not that I run red lights or anything. Yellow means slow down, not speed up. I have actually never had a ticket before. If you ever want to know anything just ask me and I'll tell you first hand. If I ever hear anything about anyone that seems odd...I'm probably just gonna ask them. No need in going through 10 people to find out the truth. I think that can become gossip anyways. I have to say though, it aggravates me when people don't do the same. If you hear something that makes you "think differently" of another person...just find out the truth for yourself! You could have possibly had a good friend indeed! I have learned that taking others for their word is not always the best. People lie! Sad truth, but it is true.
8. This may not even be about me...idk. Yes it is...I love to eat! My dad and I used to have eating contests when I was little. We would see who could eat the most sloppy joe's. I always won! Thankfully, I had this ridiculous metabolism. I love carbs. I love pastas with all of my heart. Mmmm-mmm! Give me a good baked potato with just the right amount of butter and cheese and I'll be your best friend for life. Well, since I love to eat, I enjoy cooking. I hate cleaning up afterwards...but putting that food in my mouth makes it all worth it! I even ate lunch at school. Most people don't do that. I would ask my friends who didn't eat all theirs if I could have the rest. That's how much I enjoyed it.
9. I love movies. Action, romance, comedy, suspense (not scary), you name it...I'll love it. If my job could be movie critic I would be a millionaire. Every day all day I would watch movies. Obviously, I have a life so I can't do that. Also, it would interfere with my time with God. I definitely can't have that. Maybe tv/movies is of the devil. Haha!!
10. I love my family more than anything in this world. Not only my husband and children, but ALL of them. My mom is my best friend. I call her everyday, literally 3 times or more. I love her so much because she doesn't always take my side. I know that seems a little crazy but I love how she weighs out a situation and gives me her conclusion. She's not some "spiritual" person. She's very simple and I love that. She's my "down to earth" bestie. My dad, I love simply because he is my dad. He's not always done things right by no means but at the end of the day he is my dad. He is a definte redneck living the redneck life. I think that's all I have to say about that! You will find him with a beer in his hand, a dip in his mouth and a few cuss words slingin around. He tried to teach me to cuss at people. Yes. That is him. I believe for some real salvation there. I could go on about every single person in my family and why I love them but that would be boring to you. Regardless, I love with all of my heart. I don't half-way do it. I've been made fun of a lot for having "too much" compassion. Call it what you may, but I sure do love the people in my life. I love them in their gross sin because He loved me in mine. And I believe through that, they'll see Him.
Who am I? Non-spiritually speaking...I'm Sydney Rachel Cagle Culpepper. Wife to Caleb Culpepper, by far the best earthly friend I'll ever have. Mother to a wonderful, full of life daughter and soon to be angel. A true friend to those I love. I enjoy a lot of laughs and some good food and most importantly friends who are real. I'm my own person. I love who I am and everything about me that makes me, me.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Woah! I love this blog...
Today was our 14 week 1 day doctor appointment. Suprisingly they told me I needed to gain weight. I've lost 5 pounds since my first appointment. At least I wasn't told not to eat more(: I love eating! The past week I've been feeling little baby ball up on my left side and I can even see him/her. I would swear that I felt them move last night but God said not to make a vow you can't keep and honestly I could be slightly delusional so I'll not swear.
I'll have to say, lately I have felt slightly delusional. Kick it to baby hormones or whatever you feel like, but I've been on a one-way street to telling it how I see it. Trying not to get frustrated/emotional at what could be considered minor details is very hard. So, unfortunately I've been wanting to punch some folks lately..and in my state I'm scared to say I wouldn't. Caleb said to me today, "If you could cuss, you would...wouldn't you?" So, today I read about self-control and holding my tongue. Thank you Holy word of God. Don't judge me. If you have a problem with that don't be nosey and read my blog! See, that's what I'm talking about. It just comes out. Thankfully, I can backspace this if I want. But...seriously don't take my honesty out of context, please?!
Speaking of emotions. We're doing owner financing with the couple we're buying our house from and the sweet wife died Sunday. She has battled cancer for many years and so has her husband. Unfortunately...or I guess I should say fortunately, considering she's pain/sick-free, the Lord decided it was time for her to come home. They are like grandparents to us. No lie. They love us and we love them dearly! In my akwardness, I don't know how to handle death. I never have. I just kind of run the other way. I already know that nothing I say can make them feel better and I seriously freak out when I get in their presence. Well, while in Wal-Mart reading sympathy cards trying to pick out the most appropriate one....I cried. Truly, I will miss Mrs. Judy. She had that funny bossy attitude towards her husband but in her eyes all you saw was love. Mr. David almost broke Caleb down when he spoke with him on the phone. We have prayed with them nearly everytime we've been to their home. Speaking healing over each of their bodies. The second time we met him, he said he believed since his dad had died, God had sent us to them for prayer. I know he's right.
Spiritually, God has had me in like 10 different places. I'm not sure if He's wanting me to take my pick or what? So, I'm in a little of this and a little of that everyday. The Jezebel spirit, Romans 14 and character. Okay, so it's not 10 but with everything else I have going on in my day it feels like it!
Lessons I've learned today? Never drive a vehicle with Caleb in it. Just let the man drive. I'm telling ya! He's bossy(: We got a good laugh at the end of the day though!
Well, if you think dreams mean anything.....I have had 3 dreams we're having a boy! I would be delighted(: Of course, if it is a girl I will be just as delighted! Boy names: Noah Bryan or Koehn Reighns, we can't decide. Noah-comforter, Bryan-strength (that's like a crazy oxymoron). Koehn-Priest, Reighns-meaning in itself. Girl names: Oh my goodness, you don't want to go there! I'll give you a little rundown. Note: We CANNOT agree. Willow, Piper, Scarlett, Shiloh, Mychal, Laine, Khloee, Emma-Grace, Hadlie....yeah, told ya. Middle names: Grace, Rose or Rain. If it happens to be a girl, I pray God gives me a dream of an exact name because it's stressin' me ouuutttt!
Good News: We sold my car! Yes, thank you Jesus! Now, for sale still: 02 Chevrolet Avalanche, 95 Honda Shadow(I think) It's a motorcycle, 90-something Toyota thingy...anyways. We're cleaning house! After selling all of our motor-things, we'll only have Caleb's diesel and me a new vehicle(: Yay!!
For you Vegas haters: Have you been there before? Did you know that a cruise is just as "sin-filled"? Or you neighboring store parking lot!? Sometimes the home next door has worse things going down. I know it's "the name". Everyone associates Vegas to the whole "sin-city" thing. Well let me explain....
1. This is the first reason we chose Vegas. Caleb went there WITH HIS PARENTS when he was 12. He loved it and has ALWAYS said he wanted to take me there.
2. All you can eat buffet's. I mean what the heck? Yes, please take me. (they're CHEAP)!
3. TONS of shows that are...ahem, PG. No boobies! Hello, "Disney's The Lion King"....among COUNTLESS others.
4. Sweet hotel for $30 a night. Yes, you read right. Did I mention we're in the tallest hotel and can see everything? We have a spa in our hotel. And a themepark on top of it....Chhhyyeaaah!
5. God said HE went to the darkness.
6. Um, I'm pregnant. Do you seriously think I'm going to bust up in some topless, hoo-ha showing, booze passin' round show. No. Think again. How tasteless....
7. Even if I wasn't impregnated I would not be looking at other girls doobles, much less letting my husband...
8. Yes, I like a Georgia Peach....a VIRGIN Georgia Peach. And I will partake of one. Yummy...
9. Have you ever asked yourself this question: If I stay in my cute little bubble (Yes, I totally believe God will bring them to me) BUT if I stay in my bubble, what about those who don't come? What about Peter? His shadow passed over people and they were healed! Seriously, don't underestimate my God!
10. I'm convinced that anyone who would even slightly question the thought of us taking a vacation in Vegas indeed does not know us at all. If your first response to this is, "Oh, that place is full of sin"....you've let me down. My first thought was, "HECK YEAHHHH!" I'm a grain of salt. I'm made in the image and likeness of a Holy God. I can change an atmosphere! You may think small but I think big! Pessimism is not allowed in my home. Maybe I'm a little over optimistic. But I'd rather be too much than too little. Sometimes we assume more than we should. Just sayin'..
11. I'm gonna have a baller time. With my baby bump and all(: I might meet a few celebrities. Attempt to hug em' and then tell them about Jesus. So, we don't need prayers for our salvation, just prayers for those we meet.
I totally laughed at what I just wrote. I just want some of you to think a little more open-mindedly (is that even a word?). Anyways, God is way bigger than the box we put him in. He has the capability to do above and beyond the biggest thing we can think of. Vegas is small in his eyes. But I know God put this place on our heart for a reason. What better way to spend a vacation than introducing others to Someone so Great!
I love each and everyone of you very much! I am happy and ecstatic about our trip and I know God is too! Have a blessed day(:
I'll have to say, lately I have felt slightly delusional. Kick it to baby hormones or whatever you feel like, but I've been on a one-way street to telling it how I see it. Trying not to get frustrated/emotional at what could be considered minor details is very hard. So, unfortunately I've been wanting to punch some folks lately..and in my state I'm scared to say I wouldn't. Caleb said to me today, "If you could cuss, you would...wouldn't you?" So, today I read about self-control and holding my tongue. Thank you Holy word of God. Don't judge me. If you have a problem with that don't be nosey and read my blog! See, that's what I'm talking about. It just comes out. Thankfully, I can backspace this if I want. But...seriously don't take my honesty out of context, please?!
Speaking of emotions. We're doing owner financing with the couple we're buying our house from and the sweet wife died Sunday. She has battled cancer for many years and so has her husband. Unfortunately...or I guess I should say fortunately, considering she's pain/sick-free, the Lord decided it was time for her to come home. They are like grandparents to us. No lie. They love us and we love them dearly! In my akwardness, I don't know how to handle death. I never have. I just kind of run the other way. I already know that nothing I say can make them feel better and I seriously freak out when I get in their presence. Well, while in Wal-Mart reading sympathy cards trying to pick out the most appropriate one....I cried. Truly, I will miss Mrs. Judy. She had that funny bossy attitude towards her husband but in her eyes all you saw was love. Mr. David almost broke Caleb down when he spoke with him on the phone. We have prayed with them nearly everytime we've been to their home. Speaking healing over each of their bodies. The second time we met him, he said he believed since his dad had died, God had sent us to them for prayer. I know he's right.
Spiritually, God has had me in like 10 different places. I'm not sure if He's wanting me to take my pick or what? So, I'm in a little of this and a little of that everyday. The Jezebel spirit, Romans 14 and character. Okay, so it's not 10 but with everything else I have going on in my day it feels like it!
Lessons I've learned today? Never drive a vehicle with Caleb in it. Just let the man drive. I'm telling ya! He's bossy(: We got a good laugh at the end of the day though!
Well, if you think dreams mean anything.....I have had 3 dreams we're having a boy! I would be delighted(: Of course, if it is a girl I will be just as delighted! Boy names: Noah Bryan or Koehn Reighns, we can't decide. Noah-comforter, Bryan-strength (that's like a crazy oxymoron). Koehn-Priest, Reighns-meaning in itself. Girl names: Oh my goodness, you don't want to go there! I'll give you a little rundown. Note: We CANNOT agree. Willow, Piper, Scarlett, Shiloh, Mychal, Laine, Khloee, Emma-Grace, Hadlie....yeah, told ya. Middle names: Grace, Rose or Rain. If it happens to be a girl, I pray God gives me a dream of an exact name because it's stressin' me ouuutttt!
Good News: We sold my car! Yes, thank you Jesus! Now, for sale still: 02 Chevrolet Avalanche, 95 Honda Shadow(I think) It's a motorcycle, 90-something Toyota thingy...anyways. We're cleaning house! After selling all of our motor-things, we'll only have Caleb's diesel and me a new vehicle(: Yay!!
For you Vegas haters: Have you been there before? Did you know that a cruise is just as "sin-filled"? Or you neighboring store parking lot!? Sometimes the home next door has worse things going down. I know it's "the name". Everyone associates Vegas to the whole "sin-city" thing. Well let me explain....
1. This is the first reason we chose Vegas. Caleb went there WITH HIS PARENTS when he was 12. He loved it and has ALWAYS said he wanted to take me there.
2. All you can eat buffet's. I mean what the heck? Yes, please take me. (they're CHEAP)!
3. TONS of shows that are...ahem, PG. No boobies! Hello, "Disney's The Lion King"....among COUNTLESS others.
4. Sweet hotel for $30 a night. Yes, you read right. Did I mention we're in the tallest hotel and can see everything? We have a spa in our hotel. And a themepark on top of it....Chhhyyeaaah!
5. God said HE went to the darkness.
6. Um, I'm pregnant. Do you seriously think I'm going to bust up in some topless, hoo-ha showing, booze passin' round show. No. Think again. How tasteless....
7. Even if I wasn't impregnated I would not be looking at other girls doobles, much less letting my husband...
8. Yes, I like a Georgia Peach....a VIRGIN Georgia Peach. And I will partake of one. Yummy...
9. Have you ever asked yourself this question: If I stay in my cute little bubble (Yes, I totally believe God will bring them to me) BUT if I stay in my bubble, what about those who don't come? What about Peter? His shadow passed over people and they were healed! Seriously, don't underestimate my God!
10. I'm convinced that anyone who would even slightly question the thought of us taking a vacation in Vegas indeed does not know us at all. If your first response to this is, "Oh, that place is full of sin"....you've let me down. My first thought was, "HECK YEAHHHH!" I'm a grain of salt. I'm made in the image and likeness of a Holy God. I can change an atmosphere! You may think small but I think big! Pessimism is not allowed in my home. Maybe I'm a little over optimistic. But I'd rather be too much than too little. Sometimes we assume more than we should. Just sayin'..
11. I'm gonna have a baller time. With my baby bump and all(: I might meet a few celebrities. Attempt to hug em' and then tell them about Jesus. So, we don't need prayers for our salvation, just prayers for those we meet.
I totally laughed at what I just wrote. I just want some of you to think a little more open-mindedly (is that even a word?). Anyways, God is way bigger than the box we put him in. He has the capability to do above and beyond the biggest thing we can think of. Vegas is small in his eyes. But I know God put this place on our heart for a reason. What better way to spend a vacation than introducing others to Someone so Great!
I love each and everyone of you very much! I am happy and ecstatic about our trip and I know God is too! Have a blessed day(:
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